Finding the Truth in the Word, and in my heart.

February 26 John 1:19-34 Psalm 2

Yesterday night was a bit of a hassle with my soul, as I missed the Wednesday service. I really needed some praise and worship in my life yesterday, but my peace of mind came later that night when I was praying a little bit, or I was trying to. My DVD player stopped playing so I just relaxed in silence while reading my new book. It is called “Overcoming the Enemy” by Charles Stanley. It was about discovering God’s plan for winning Spiritual battles. I got into Chapter two when I relaxed so much I fell asleep, which was really unusually for me, as uptight as I was last night. IT was a God send for me. I had a lovely night’s sleep.

I woke up this morning refreshed and ready to go with reading my Bible and praying. :o)

John 1:19-34

A Voice in the Wilderness

19 Now this is the testimony of John, when the Jews sent priests and Levites from Jerusalem to ask him, “Who are you?” 20 He confessed, and did not deny, but confessed, “I am not the Christ.”
21 And they asked him, “What then? Are you Elijah?” He said, “I am not.” “Are you the Prophet?”
And he answered, “No.” 22 Then they said to him, “Who are you, that we may give an answer to those who sent us? What do you say about yourself?” 23 He said: “I am

The voice of one crying in the wilderness:

Make straight the way of the LORD,”’
as the prophet Isaiah said.”

I believe that John was the messenger sent to prepare the way for the Messiah.
John the Baptist had a strong character and confidence before the priests and Levites from Jereusalem to declare he wasn’t who they thought he was, and bold enough to state what his role was in God’s Kingdom.

I hope to have the confidence and the boldness of John the Baptist when I proclaim the Good News to others.

24 Now those who were sent were from the Pharisees. 25 And they asked him, saying, “Why then do you baptize if you are not the Christ, nor Elijah, nor the Prophet?”
26 John answered them, saying, “I baptize with water, but there stands One among you whom you do not know. 27 It is He who, coming after me, is preferred before me, whose sandal strap I am not worthy to loose.” 28 These things were done in Bethabara beyond the Jordan, where John was baptizing.

Wow, it must have been amazing for John to state that the Messiah was among them and none of them realized it but him. To have Jesus, the Son of God, walking in the midst, experiences life as we lived it. It is very humbling to know that Jesus, left his Throne in Heaven, to walk among us.

To think of that is mind boggling, to think Jesus cared enough for me, you and everyone that he sacrificed so much just for us.

I know I am not worthy as a sinful human to unloosen his sandal strap, but only by his precious blood that he shed at Calvary, as I am worthy to stand before Father God.

The Lamb of God

29 The next day John saw Jesus coming toward him, and said, “Behold! The Lamb of God who takes away the sin of the world! 30 This is He of whom I said, ‘After me comes a Man who is preferred before me, for He was before me.’ 31 I did not know Him; but that He should be revealed to Israel, therefore I came baptizing with water.” 32 And John bore witness, saying, “I saw the Spirit descending from heaven like a dove, and He remained upon Him. 33 I did not know Him, but He who sent me to baptize with water said to me, ‘Upon whom you see the Spirit descending, and remaining on Him, this is He who baptizes with the Holy Spirit.’ 34 And I have seen and testified that this is the Son of God.”

I believe Jesus is the Lamb of God who takes away the sins of the world

John knew then the Messiah stepped forth, but I wonder how many were in the crowd that saw what John saw that day. Did any that were there hunger for the Kingdom of God as John did. Did any of them feel within their hearts that this person that stepped forth, who was Jesus, was special. Did their hearts speak to them and tell them it was their Messiah standing there? Some day I will ask God these questions and I know all my questions will be answered.

I believe God the Father confirmed that Jesus is the Savior of the world when the Holy Spirit descended and rested upon him after his baptism.

During this time, I like to imagine what it might have been like to be in the crowd and follow Jesus as His ministry grew. Would I have been an skeptic or would have my heart proclaimed the true to my soul, when I saw Jesus? As my heart yearns for Jesus, I want to believe I would have known as soon as John the Baptist proclaimed it.

My mind might not have wanted to believe it because it is rationalizes by human standards, but the heart, the soul knows and believes sometimes what the mind can comprehend. That is how I know there is a God. I believe because the fiber of my being tells me so, even though my mind logically tries at times to disprove His existence.

Psalm 2

This psalm helps me focus on it is not the places, the kingdoms of this world that I should focus on, because all things of this Earth, will fall away int time.

The Messiah’s Triumph and Kingdom

1 Why do the nations rage,
And the people plot a vain thing?
2 The kings of the earth set themselves,
And the rulers take counsel together,
Against the LORD and against His Anointed, saying,
3 “Let us break Their bonds in pieces
And cast away Their cords from us.”

All around me, I see the world raging and taking over other countries. I see people caught up in the vanities of being the King of the Hill, as others are trampled underneath. I have even see lately in the news how Countries around the world have denied the Kingdom of God and His Messiah, Jesus. I am watching those people try to tear down what God controls. I know that God is in control.

I know that the Lord scoffs at the human attempts to overthrow His kingship.

4 He who sits in the heavens shall laugh;
The Lord shall hold them in derision.
5 Then He shall speak to them in His wrath,
And distress them in His deep displeasure:
6 “Yet I have set My King
On My holy hill of Zion.”

May the Word of God always be my shining light in this world. I hope that my heart always remains true as the world around me doubts My God. And when my God acts upon His displeasure to those that scorn him and do not believe in Him, may I always pray for those unbelievers so they might see the truth.


7 “I will declare the decree:
The LORD has said to Me,
‘You are My Son,
Today I have begotten You.
8 Ask of Me, and I will give You
The nations for Your inheritance,
And the ends of the earth for Your possession.
9 You shall break them with a rod of iron;
You shall dash them to pieces like a potter’s vessel.’”

I am child of God and My God is my Father. As a child would ask of their father, all I have to do is ask and He will provide. He has granted me many blessings, and He wants me to prosper, for it is right as a child of God. It is my inheritance!

One of my friend told me once, a cub of the Lion, and that makes me a Lion as well, as that in itself is powerful, because sometimes I forget that I am child of God and the rights that come with it. I should never forget that!

I want to be more like David for yearn for the Heart of God and to do His will in his life.

I want to be more like John the Baptist, who was bold and strong in proclaiming the coming of God’s Kingdom. I want to be bold and strong in this world and share the Gospel with others.

I want to be more like Jesus who was compassionate to all and had His heart and mind and soul only for you, God. I want to be like that always.

10 Now therefore, be wise, O kings;
Be instructed, you judges of the earth.
11 Serve the LORD with fear,
And rejoice with trembling.
12 Kiss the Son, lest He be angry,
And you perish in the way,
When His wrath is kindled but a little.
Blessed are all those who put their trust in Him.

Lord, allow all that I do, be in the wisdom in which You give me. May the Lord always instruct me in the ways I should act upon and do within my employment. I hope that I shall always serve God with fear, that He knows all and my ungodly actions will be seen maybe not by man, but will always be seen by God.

I praise God that it is He that keeps my pathways straight and my mind pure in a World that is wild and ungodly. I put my trust in God and His son, Jesus and not in the worldly kings in which I live.

I serve the Lord with fear and rejoicing because he is King of all.

I submit of God’s Son and find protection in Him

Daniel's Prayer Daniel 9:4-19

This is a lengthy prayer and I am very tired, so I will resume discussing what that prayer tells me when I read it. I must not fall behind on reading or writing or I won’t catch up.

Tomorrow I will be reading and studying John 1:35-51 (Word) Psalm 5 (Praise) and David's Prayer for Protection Psalm 3 (Prayer)

I have to say with much rejoicing and gladness that I have found my place back with God. I realized earlier today that my faith in God has been restored and I knew it wouldn’t take long. The Word of God and what God does in my life daily, is proof enough for me that He is there. I don’t have to always understand why things happen in my life the way they do. I just have to have faith and trust in my Father God. And at times, a stumble on the path of my faith, but God is patience with me, and when I do fall, He does help me up, weather I acknowledge it or not. He is there.

And for that, I am very, very thankful and blessed by His presence in my life.

God bless

Walking slow, but sure

February 25, 2009 John 1:1-18, Psalm 1, Genesis 18: 23-33

Today is the first day of the Lenten Season. It usually is a time of reflection for me with the Lord, but this year it is going to be very hard to me to do, since I am struggling with my faith and trying to understand a loss of a friendship. I know from past experiences that focusing on the Lord will do me good. I just know it is going to be a very hard at times both physical and emotional because I will be focusing and allowing God to work within me. At this point in time, I am just so confused about various things that I don't know what direction to take. I will just have to take it day by day, and believe that Lord with strengthen me on this journey I am taking. I have to be honest to say that the loss of a friendship, which I took to be very special has rocked my faith to the core in a manner that I have been struggling with my faith ever since.

John 1:1-18

The Eternal Word

John 1: 1-5

1 In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. 2 He was in the beginning with God. 3 All things were made through Him, and without Him nothing was made that was made. 4 In Him was life, and the life was the light of men. 5 And the light shines in the darkness, and the darkness did not comprehend it.

I Believe Jesus Christ, the eternal Word, existed with God and was God. I believe Jesus created everything there is.

It is amazing and wonderful that Jesus was and is the life and light for man. Many of us have walked in the darkness, wondering if we will ever see the light. Jesus is the Eternal Word, which the Book of John clearly states that “In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God and the Word was God”


John’s Witness: The True Light

John 1: 6-13

6 There was a man sent from God, whose name was John. 7 This man came for a witness, to bear witness of the Light, that all through him might believe. 8 He was not that Light, but was sent to bear witness of that Light. 9 That was the true Light which gives light to every man coming into the world. 10 He was in the world, and the world was made through Him, and the world did not know Him. 11 He came to His own, and His own did not receive Him. 12 But as many as received Him, to them He gave the right to become children of God, to those who believe in His name: 13 who were born, not of blood, nor of the will of the flesh, nor of the will of man, but of God.

I sometimes ponder upon John's duty to be the scout for the Lord, that was to come. John's life must have been very hard, living frugally as well as always being focused on the eyes of God, so that way he might complete his task that the Father God gave him. I wonder if I could have been able to be so focused. At times just focusing on reading my Bible everyday can be hard.


John went forth to be a witness for the Lord that was coming. Could I be more like John during this Lenten Season. During the following days of Lenten, will I have the strength to proclaim the Glory of Jesus and what He did so we might live? At this point of time, as I write this, I have to say “No, I don't have the strength” I know it is in my heart and soul that I want to, I yearn to, but it is my flesh that gets in the way at this point. As I walk these 40 days with Jesus, I will learn how to set aside the flesh of my body and allow God to work with the spirit of my soul.

I will try to keep the gift of Salvation on the front part of my mind and heart, as I walk, and try to be come like John the Baptist. I have recently have been pushing the comfort envelope in regards to spreading the Gospel. I am very much a shy person, so I do not have the daring speaking voice of Billy Graham or John the Baptist, yet I do try to lay down pathways to the Lord by creative ways of sharing the Gospel.

I have written Salvation Scriptures on post it notes, along with a encouraging sticker and left them around the places I go, when I am running errands for the office I work at. It is a step for me, as well as maybe a huge step for someone who finds it in their time of need. The world is so filled with pain and confusion that, many lost people are in need of a Saviour. The world needs Jesus.

I will focus on become more like John the Baptist

The Word Becomes Flesh

John 1:14-17

14 And the Word became flesh and dwelt among us, and we beheld His glory, the glory as of the only begotten of the Father, full of grace and truth.
15 John bore witness of Him and cried out, saying, “This was He of whom I said, ‘He who comes after me is preferred before me, for He was before me.’”
16 And of His fullness we have all received, and grace for grace. 17 For the law was given through Moses, but grace and truth came through Jesus Christ. 18 No one has seen God at any time. The only begotten Son, who is in the bosom of the Father, He has declared Him.

I have been given the right to become a child of God because I have believed Jesus and accepted him as my Lord and Savior. It is a gift that was freely given and freely accepted.

My mind at times can't wrap around the fact that Jesus would love us so much, that he would leave his throne in Heaven, so that we might not walk in darkness, but come to Him and receive his gift of Salvation and walk in the light with Him.

I believe that Jesus, as God the Father's only son, became human to reveal God's glory to humanity and to save us from our sinful nature.

I have benefited from the rich and gracious blessings brought by the acceptance of Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior.

Psalm 1

I am reflecting on Psalm 1 during my walk with Jesus this Lenten Season. Psalm 1 is a reflection of a person to walk a more righteous path, and only with our Saviour, Jesus, are we going to be able to achieve that status and build a more loving relationship with the Father God.

The Way of the Righteous and the End of the Ungodly

1 Blessed is the man
Who walks not in the counsel of the ungodly,
Nor stands in the path of sinners,
Nor sits in the seat of the scornful;

I do not follow and will not take the advice of the wicked or ungodly individuals or join in with them.

Walking the Christian walk can be very hard at times. It means not associating with unbelievers, in order to remain focused and clear of any back sliding. I know as a strong believer myself, that I have to be very careful about those I hang out with, because they are the gateway to sin for me. They might lead me astray in ways that I do not want to go in, but are lead that way due to my poor ability to take action and walk away. I always has to remember to be very picky about where I allow myself, both mentally and physical go in this world.

Remember that in Matthew 7:13-14 Jesus said, “Enter by the narrow gate; for wide is the gate and broad is the way that leads to destruction, and there are many who go in by it. Because narrow is the gate and difficult is the way which leads to life, and there are few who find it.”

Being a Christian, might be hard and lonely, but I must always remember that I am walking on the right path. On the path with God.

2 But his delight is in the law of the LORD,
And in His law he meditates day and night.

I will enjoy a fruitful life with the Lord because I delight in the Lord's word and I will obey Him

I find myself delighting in the Word of the Lord, because it is filled with Light and hope. Always in times of great joy or in times of great trouble, I have always found my heart skipping along the verses of the Word that comforts, refreshed and renews me. The Word of the Lord is like living water, it always quenches the thirsty soul.

3 He shall be like a tree
Planted by the rivers of water,
That brings forth its fruit in its season,
Whose leaf also shall not wither;
And whatever he does shall prosper.

Walking with the Lord and following His Word is life giving all to partake in it. It always gives when it is needed, and never steals. Faith might be very hard at times, but it is because in order to bear “good” fruit takes work, and God wants us to make sure we know, in times of stress or hardship, He has not stepped aside to allow us to wither, but to learn how to become stronger in the windstorms of Life.

4 The ungodly are not so,
But are like the chaff which the wind drives away.

Even thought I might see the wicked and the ungodly prosper in some way or another, it is not of God and I must always remember it will not last, because what is not of God will not last. Only God is unchanging.

5 Therefore the ungodly shall not stand in the judgment,
Nor sinners in the congregation of the righteous.

I must remember that God will separate the goats from the sheep, and will not allow the ungodly and the sinners to have a place among this children. God will only recognize the ones that have recognized His only Son, Jesus as Savior, and Lord. We are made righteous in God's sight by the blood of Jesus, who washes away all sin.

6 For the LORD knows the way of the righteous,
But the way of the ungodly shall perish.

I have reassurance that God knows everything that happens to me, even though this world I live in might not recognize the wrongs done to me. God watches out for my pathways and makes them clear, as long as I walk along with him. If I would stray from God's side, my walk might become hard and burdensome, in a manner, which only God could relieve Jesus has said in Matthew 11:28-30 “Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light” I know that only by allowing God to work with me and within me, am I able to be released of any burden I might carry with me.

During this 40 day walk with Jesus, I hope to remember that only when I step away from God, do I lose that blessing of rest and release from the World

Genesis 18:23-33 (Prayer)

Abraham asked to God if He would destroy the righteous with the wicked even if there was only 50 righteous people within the city of Sodom. In response, God said he would not. Abraham asked until he got down to only 10 righteous people within that horrible town that God wanted to destroy. May I always be reminded of Abraham and his intercession of the those that have fallen away from God's path. May I also always be reminded that as a child of God, I must be intercessor for my family and friends that are in need. It is my power of prayer and my title as a Child of God that allows me to sit before the Throne of God, and share my concerns for those that I love.

Abraham was bold in asking God. He had no fear, but confidence in that the Lord would hear him. It is all I can do, is be confident as a Child of God that the Lord will hear and answer, in His own time. I must always remember that Jesus said in John 16:23-24 “And in that day you will ask Me nothing. Most assuredly, I say to you, whatever you ask the Father in My name He will give you. 24 Until now you have asked nothing in My name. Ask, and you will receive, that your joy may be full."

All I have to remember is to ask and share with My father and He will provide.

Today the focus is to be witness more like John the Baptist, be more focused on God and his ways like that person in Psalm 1, and be bold in prayer to my Father, like Abraham.

I am praying for My mother, that she might seek Jesus and find Salvation, for my friend, K, who might turn back toward that Lord and walk with him, and for my friend, P, who in her grief, knows and feels the loving hands of the Father hugging her in her time of need.

Tomorrow I will be reading John 1:19-34 (Word) Psalm 2 (Praise) and Daniel 9:4-19 (Prayer)

God bless

The countdown

Today is the last day before Lent. To Catholics it is known as Shrove Tuesday or Fat Tuesday, in which a person indulges in all the wonderful things that they will be giving up. Mardi Gras (French for Fat Tuesday) is well know to all, in which people seep themselves into decadent things such as food and other Earthly pleasures.

Even thought I am no longer a practicing Catholic and have walked away from those beliefs, the practice of observing Lent is something I have retained from my old life. Lent has always been a time for deep reflection of my relationship with God and how Jesus suffered, died and arose so I might have life.

Growing up, I knew of Jesus. As most Catholics, we focused more of the crucified Christ, then the arisen one. Why is that? I don't rightly know, but I just know that within my Catholic upbringing, we focused on Jesus on the Cross and less of the arisen one. I am not saying it is right or wrong. I am just saying that it showed how I outwardly looked at things. As a Catholic I focused on pain and suffering, where as a Born Again Christian, I now focus more upon the freedom of pain and suffering because Jesus arose!

My favorite lyrics as of late, are the ones from the Hope song in the Easter Carol.

There is nothing left to fear
nothing Heaven knows
For he died for us to give us life
and to give us hope He rose

Those words really hit me deep when I think about them. “For He died for us to give us life” and “To give us hope, He rose” Those words could not express more deeply that wonderful statement.

That is the reason why for the next 40 days I will be reflecting my relationship with Jesus, while I read the Book of John and various Psalms, as well as various prayers in the Bible. I will focused on the deeper meaning of Walking with Christ and how it affects my life and how I see things around me. As I have been quite morose lately, I think this walk will be a joyful one at times, and hopeful I will be able to surpass any depression or loneliness that I have been feeling. My focus at this point in time is just one day at a time. I know that is all God asks of me.

This walk that I am going to be partaking is not one that I am easily doing at this time, due to my recent heartache, but I know it will be for the best, as it will allow me to move closer to God, set my priorities right with Him as well as allow me to see more clearly on what God's plan is in my life. (I hope!)

Also during this time I will focus on a couple of my friends in prayer at this time, so that I might reach out an help them in some way. I pray for various people everyday, but at times, praying for my friends can be sidelined due to how I am feeling at times. It is typical to be human like that, but I want to do what I can.

I ordered 3 books the other day that I will be trying to read at the same time during my 40 days of Lent. Of course, I won't get them until probably next week, but I still want to make an effort to read, reflect and learn from this walk.

I ordered:

1. The Love Dare

I read somewhere online that reading this book might be very good to do during the Lenten season. Of course, I have my druthers about doing so, since I am currently single, but it was not my choice, so anything regarding love is very irritating to my heart due to the feelings I still have for him. But then again, Lenten isn't about my person gain in the prospects of love, but the path way that Jesus walked so I might be free. It is about His ultimate love for us as humans and how He wanted us to have life with His Father, God. I thought by reading the Love Dare, it will show me a deeper meaning of Jesus' love for us and how I might learn to love the people around me better then I do.

2. The Crucifixion of Jesus, Second Edition, Completely Revised and Expanded: A Forensic Inquiry

I think I had a book like this long time ago, which I always read during the Lenten Season because it really made me focus on the crucifixion in a way that I needed to understand it. Being raised Catholic, the religion glorified the crucifixion in everything, but they really failed to make it known how powerful, how horrible and how life changing something like a crucifixion is. By reading this book, all-cleaned up-lovely-for-Hollywood-looks were torn apart and I could truly understand what my Saviour wen through. I borrowed it out to another Born Again Christian to share with his father and I never got it back. So it is either this book or A Doctor at Calvary The Passion of Our Lord Jesus Christ that I once owned.

Of course, I haven't seen the Passion of the Christ yet, but I do own it. I bought it last year to watch Friday before Easter, but I was not up to at the time, so it still sits in its wrapped up package. I might watch it this year.

3. A Doctor at Calvary The Passion of Our Lord Jesus Christ

If the book I once had is this one and not the other one “The Crucifixion of Jesus, Second Edition, Completely Revised and Expanded: A Forensic Inquiry” I can remember what the cover looked like, but either of the newest books I ordered had the same cover. I am hoping that I owned the first Edition to the book “The crucifixion of Jesus”. Only when I open the book and start reading it, will I know if it is or not.

Tomorrow I will be reading and focusing on John 1:1-18 (Word), Psalm 1(Praise) and Abraham’s Intercession for Sodom & Gomorrah Genesis 18:23-33 (Prayer)

Lately, I have been fighting with myself about reading my Bible and believing in God's promises, due to my minor setback in my life. I hope that by reading and reflecting each day what God has put before me, that sense of doubt in God and where I want to be in His ultimate plan will be settled and at peace for once for a while. I know that by doing this, I can only prosper from soaking my heart and soul in the Word and help me gain the confidence I once had in God. A lot of thing have happened in order to shake my faith, but I know the foundation of God in my life are still strong, because I placed my faith and love on the Rock.

“The LORD is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower.” -Psalm 18:2

I am just feeling unsteady because I don't understand the things that are happening around me so therefore, I am fearful of the uncertainty of it all. I hope that also at the end of this 2009 Lenten Season that I have found myself stronger and more confident in the Lord, as well as learned how to repair and strengthen my relationship with my family and friends. As well as learn to let go of those dear friendships that are no more.

“In God is my salvation and my glory: the rock of my strength, and my refuge, is in God.”-Psalm 62:7

In all, I know I will learn how to trust in God more then I have in the last couple months, and learn to give all my problems to Him (and not snatch them back out of fear of them not being fixed or that He isn't pay enough attention to my needs). May this Lenten Season teach me more then just walking close to God, but to have more patience in His planning in my life. I think that this walk is going to be a rough one for me right now, because I really don't want to do it, but the deeper part of me, knows I have to do it, because my heart still yearns to be by my Father's side, no matter how hurt I am right now.

Tomorrow is going to be the first couple steps toward the miles of a long journey. At least I know I will be in good company during the journey. I know God will be patient with my grumpiness, and stubborn attitude I might develop during this long walk.

God bless,

By Your Side

Jesus is always with us. He is always by our side. This is one of my favorite songs, that I love to listen to when my world seems to lose its true focus. GOD It helps me not become blind to the world around me and see that Shepherd is walking beside me when I do lose sight of Him.

"And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you"

Jesus did so much for us. At times it is hard for me to comprehend that Jesus DIED for me and my sinfulness. He knew I would need Him. He knew that I would cry out to Him. Jesus loved me enough to sacrifice everything, His life, so I might live and come home to my Father. Thank you Jesus. Thank you so very very much.

"Look at these hands and my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world's sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life
I want to give you life"

I LOVE you Jesus.

See what Jesus does to get you back into His arms

When in doubt, watch this. When you feel the world is got a hold of you and won't give you a break, watch this. When you feel like nothing matters and you feel worthless, WATCH this!

Jesus is always watching out for you. Calling out to you. And Always, ALWAYS trying to drag you back to His awaiting arms!

Trusting in the Lord- Psalm 62

The definition of Trust is to have an assured reliance on the character, ability, strength, or truth of someone or something. To Trust a person is one in which confidence is placed.

Lately I have been focusing on the meaning of trust and how it revolves around in my life and in my faith in God. Christian always talk about having faith and trusting in God. But do they really dwell on the word “trust” and how we apply it to God?

People usually learn how to trust through their parents, for it is the parents that provide a child an physical, social and emotional needs. And if that trust is broken or never full formed, a person can grow up to not trust people around him or herself socially. Trust is always important in any relationship. It is important with the people close to you. It is very important in a person's relationship with God. I have been reading a book called Praying the Psalms by Juanita Ryan. And I have been reading Psalm 62, which is known as a prayer of Trust.

1Truly my soul silently waits for God;From Him comes my salvation.

2He only is my rock and my salvation;He is my defense; I shall not be greatly moved.

I found myself saying these words to myself saying verse 1 just a couple days ago, when I was fretting about something and caught up in a world of nervousness. Deep inside I knew that verse was ringing true in my soul. My soul was silently waiting for the Lord. It was waiting for Him to speak and move within my life. For I know everything in my life flows through Him. And when I look for guidance from Him and it isn't as quick as I would like it, I get antsy on what way I need to take things. And at times when I do step forth without His guidance, I get lost and cry about it to Him.

I have known for a very long time that God is my only rock and salvation in this world in which I live in. As I grew up with a lot of turmoil and discord in my life, He was my only defense, in which with my innocent mind, spoke to him countless times about various issues as I lay in bed at night crying myself to sleep. He was the rock in which I stood on each new day. He was the defense in my life, when I felt I had none. And through the years, as my walk in faith grew deeper, I found myself not moved without God by my side. It was a strong bond which I forged with my Heavenly Father. A trust between a Heavenly parent and a mortal child.

One of the things that it chapter in the book asks me is what are my insecurities in my relationship with God. I took a long pause to think of it before I admitted it. My insecurity with my relationship with God I think is a normal one with many Christians. That He won't answer to my pleas or He doesn't hear me at all. I am human and being so, I tend to ,limit God in my life, as if He is a human parent and likely to have the failings of other parents of this world. Not answering my pleas for help, ignoring my insistent statements of the desires of my heart and not advising me against stubborn outlooks in life.

I know God hears me, and it is my limiting Him by my human standards prevents Him from working in my life at times as He needs to. So I always try to take a blind leap of faith when it comes to God, because He has never abandoned me. I take that jump because I have Trust in the Lord. I guess it would be hard to explain. I just know that he has always provided for me when I was in need of something. It wasn't always a want, but it was a need. If I needed food, I received. If was short of money for some bill, I received. It was always something which I needed and God always provided. God also was there emotional for me at times, when I had no one. He calmed my fear and soothed my broken heart so many nights, when it seems that the night would never end. He was always there, when I called. I love Isaiah 48:9, because it reflects the trust in my soul for God.

Then you will call, and the LORD will answer; You will cry, and He will say, 'Here I am.'

Isaiah 48:9

It is a bond of trust that I have turned to time and time again in my life.

Once again the book I am reading asked me “What makes a person trustworthy?” Hmmmm. For each person, it is various things which are too numerous to mention, but I know if someone whom I trust fumbles a particular issue I have place trust in, it is harder to give that trust to that person full trust the next time around. We have all been hurt by untrustworthy people and sometimes innocent people are harmed because of our mistrust.

3 How long will you attack a man?

You shall be slain, all of you,

Like a leaning wall and a tottering fence.

4 They only consult to cast him down from his high position;

They delight in lies; They bless with their mouth,

But they curse inwardly. Selah

I am human and like anyone else, I place a lot of trust in the people of this world only to feel the heartache of disappointment when human trust is broken. The words “ You shall be slain, all of you.” reminds me that I will die and why do I put my trust in human like things when I should always focus on God who is eternal. “Like a leaning wall and a tottering fence” reflects the instability of things of this world, the fraility of the world that I live in, it shows me I should not place my heart and trust in the material things of this world. I should place my trust in the Lord.

5 My soul, wait silently for God alone,

For my expectation is from Him.

6 He only is my rock and my salvation;

He is my defense;

I shall not be moved.

7 In God is my salvation and my glory;

The rock of my strength,

And my refuge, is in God.

My soul does wait silently for God. The one thing about trusting God, is that He makes you learn patience. In order to have trust in the God, one must have a type of patience, for God moves in His time and not mine, no matter how badly I wish Him to. It is having that patience to wait upon Him, that builds that trust over time. One must have open mind to be able to see that God HAS come through as promised. If I beg of God to provide something to me, in which He knows it is not in my best interest, and I am hurt by His actions in my life, then that trust in jepordized. I can believe that God either ignored my pleas or I can see a deeper and wider scope of it. God doesn't always provide a “want” in my life, but He will always provide a “need”. I have to always remind myself, when I ask something of God and place my trust in Him, that I am aware of what trust I am playing in God's hands and if is in God's will.

I believe a lot of people lose trust in God because they have limited Him to a human standard and when things do not follow through as a person would like them, they blame God. God didn't do and God didn't do that. I must always remember one very important thing. God CAN do anything. He is not limited to our human boundries. And if it is in God's will for something to be done or happen, believe me, it WILL happen.

The world is like that leaning wall and a tottering fence, which many people place trust in. I know I have placed my trust in God, yet still depended on frailties of man. God is not that leaning wall and a tottering fence. I need to place my trust on God, the rock of my strength, and not some poorly made wall or rickety old fence. The only way I will not be moved in this world, is if I place my trust in God who is the Rock of my strength, for in this human shell, there is nothing but God that can withstand the test of time.

8 Trust in Him at all times, you people;

Pour out your heart before Him;

God is a refuge for us. Selah

Do I trust in God at all times? Do you? If I said I did, then I everyone would know that I am lying, because being human, we have do have boundaries of understanding and comprehending this of this world. I do pour out my hear to Him. God knows me better then anyone of this world. He is m y refuge, because it is in Him which I have poured out my heart, so He knows the innermost workings of my soul. He is my Father and as His daughter, I share with Him the countless joys as well as the painful heartaches of my soul. So, Trust in Him at all times, for He is the refuge of one's soul, only if you allow God to take you into His arms at all times, regardless on what you are going through. It is a deep trust, anyone should have with God. To be able to turn to Him at anytime for comfort and solace.

9 Surely men of low degree are a vapor,

Men of high degree are a lie;

If they are weighed on the scales,

They are altogether lighter than vapor.

10 Do not trust in oppression,

Nor vainly hope in robbery;

If riches increase,

Do not set your heart on them.

We live in a very material world and it is hard to see men as a vapor, but in God's eyes this world is very temporary. And as a human, it is hard to remember that. All the things of this world will fall away, but God never changes and will always remain the same. That is why trust in Him is important, because it is that trust we have in Him, helps us see that things of this world are nothing but a vapor. We are not to trust in things of this world, such as riches. It is a strong temptation for me, as I am sure it is for most people, because it gives us a false sense of stability.

If we take our eyes off the Lord, then we place them on other things, which we might begin to form a sense of trust in. I might be tempted to place my trust in man, who might love me or I might place my trust in money because of the ability to provide things I want. So my bond of trust might be harmed because I am placing trust in worldly things rather then in an eternal one.

When I have been gripped with an issue of trust regarding this world and God, I always repeat one thing to help me focus on God and God alone. The words are simple, yet if I repeat over and over again, when I am struggling with the disappointment in what I see, it helps me real “see” what is important, because I live the door open for God, rather then shut it.

“The Lord is my Shepherd, and I shall not want”
Psalm 23

Those simple words, profess my trust in God and I repeat it when I struggle to lose that trust due to my disappointment in life. Jesus is the Shepherd, and when I am lost, He will guide me, the lost sheep, and provide for me so I shall not want. It is trust strong trust between a Shepherd and his lamb. A bond that only grows in time, through trails and tribulation, where I have gotten lost, and when I cried out, God came to find me and lead me back into His arms again.

It is unbroken trust I have with God, which shows me not to dwell on the things of man, though it be very hard to do. When I stumble and fall, I always know why I do and what I must do in order to find myself beside My Heavenly Father again.

11God has spoken once,

Twice I have heard this:

That power belongs to God.

12 Also to You, O Lord, belongs mercy;

For You render to each one according to his work.

God is strong and loving and in times of great crises, that can be hard to see. But God has never failed to show His children that all power belongs to Him. Not only is He powerful and all things revert back to Him, but He is merciful as well. What trust to have in God that He contains all the power of this world and when His heavy hand comes down to make sure His ultimate plan might be accomplished, He is still merciful to those who fall upon the wayside and get lost. Never does God turn away from His children who have strayed from His path. It is a trust that God has placed down and put before us always in His Word.

8And the Lord, He is the One who goes before you.
He will be with you, He will not leave you nor forsake you;
do not fear nor be dismayed.

Deuteronomy 31:8 NKJV

He will be with me always, even when I might not want Him to be there. He will be with you always, even if you don't feel He is there. He is always there for His children. He faithfulness is everlasting. It is whom we should put all our trust in. Trust in God alone.

My love for Him only deepens when I realize that my Father, God is always standing there, when all the things of this world are brushed away in time.

He truly is my Rock and my Salvation.

The Rock of strength that is the foundation of my faith and love, because I trust in Him.

Always!

Thank you Lord. :o)